Amelioration

I will say the things, I've never said,
Feel the feelings, I've always fled,
Attempt to evade, the pervasive dread,
That constantly ruminates within my head.

I will pursue the desires, I once craved,
Control the fear that keeps me enslaved,
And determine the standards that ought be staved,
Thus creating a new path as yet, unpaved.

I will relinquish the demons in my mind,
Leave all the defeatist mentality behind,
Embrace the musings of a different kind,
By expressing all, that has been confined.

I will engage myself in honest reflection,
Perceive my being through planned dissection,
And render my endeavors towards confection,
Embodied in the drive to seize perfection.